I'm sorry, xanga. It's time for us to break up.
I can give the multitude of reasons any person gives when breaking up with someone....we've grown apart, things have changed, I just don't love you anymore....well, that last one isn't true. I've been with alot of you for the entire 8 years I've been on xanga, and I love you all dearly.
My life has changed dramatically in the last 6 months. I lost my job at the college. I went through chemotherapy. I fell apart and put myself back together. My little girl grew up into a teenager. I began writing a novel; it's 1/3 finished already.
These changes (and a billion more) are what leads me to archive my girlymac site. You see, I'm no longer the person who wrote here so freely. I have very little free time; what little I have I'm selfishly using for ME. Chemo taught me that one. When you sit in a room with people who are dying for different reasons and you are all receiving poison in your bodies in the hope of delaying death a short while, it makes you reconsider your life a bit. This summer has been a rebirth for me; without a job to occupy me I've hiked and rafted and lived my life. It has been so peaceful.
I didn't share my chemo story here, nor anywhere else as it was so violently personal that I couldn't write about it. I would have shared it on Facebook, but one of my cousins flipped out and accused me of lying about my condition for attention....so I withdrew and endured the experience alone.
I really miss my xanga friends....and if you want to keep in contact, you can email me at peggiodle *at* gmail *dot* com. I'm on Facebook regularly, but otherwise I'm not blogging anymore.
Thanks for 8 years, xanga. It's been a good run.
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<3 i sent you a friend request...
I've only just come back to Xanga.. and you are going! NOOOO!!!
Much love to you Peg. I think of you often. xxx
I am heartbroken to hear the news of your health, Peggi. I understand completely your choosing not to write about it here, and to stop blogging. It is difficult to come back to a place and remember the pain. I am forever grateful to Xanga for the people I've met here. I will see you over on facebook and wish you the long, healthy and happy life you so richly deserve.
Oh, Peggi ... I am sorry to see you leave (especially since I just came back too), but I can understand the why. I am glad, and not one bit surprised, that out of incredible adversity you've reemerged with an amazing new outlook. For the years I've been reading about your life here, I've always been inspired by your strength ... and now even more so.
All my best wishes to you and to Faith ... and I'll be looking you up on Facebook.
Kelly